Sunday, 28 October 2012

[Pt.3] Playlist: "woe is me" (vicious circle)

Um, so why exactly did I, of all "enlightened" souls, start this playlist again?? Oh yeah, it was due to personal issues that I'm not going to reiterate. Now you explain to me as a "friend" why you've not "Liked" my page already (...awkward, huh). So I called out "woe is me" over a fortnight, along with ten woeful songs and artists each week, as an attempt to try and breakthrough to the "Facebook conscience" (gee, did I get your much valued attention?)... but the real intent was to spread the message "30 LIKES BEFORE NEXT RELEASE"; a simple milestone (that, prior to this, I had actually already invited everyone to know about as a presentation/event planned for November 1st) just to be sure if it's really worth ME burdening myself on Fb like I currently am.

It could take years before I'm able to round up a (deserving) audience - but in the meantime - networking with strangers on SoundCloud, Last.fm, Twitter, etc. seems surprisingly less hostile anyway--so why should I even be bothered? Facebook and its mission to "make the world more open and connected" is failing me miserably in that regard; if anything, it's not only oppressing me right now, but it's also making me see the worst in people. I don't care where the remaining page "Likes" come from, just so long as you've got a functioning brain! My next playlist will be a continuation (week 2) of the original "artists/songs I owe my life to" series--but ONLY when that milestone is reached.

All apologies if my musical (mis)adventures turn you off. To be honest, I think the electronic focused environment of dBs Music (in this dumb-step era) had actually inspired the anger in some of my SoundCloud tracks as a restless student (such as "Raw & Mixed" opener 'All in My Head (Apparently)'); I might have made a bit of drama concerning the isolation I experienced--though could easily have not bothered sharing such burdensome improvisations (instead just repress it and all). So do forgive me of my hastiness, but it is all part of artistic development (honest!). Besides, looking at my News Feed of insipid statuses day in day out, who really takes Fb seriously anyway? If you knew me then you'd know that I have a tendency to wear my heart on my sleeve. But at the end of the day, I'd rather I weren't plugging all my stuff in vain; so only when I reach these milestones will I then continue sharing my musical journey publicly. I'm getting no money or credit for this, yet I still put great thought into everything I offer. I have ambitions; tell me otherwise. Go on, I'd love to be put in my place!

With no one to reassure me in all this stuff I share online--the tracks; playlists; blogs; profiles; networking... it's all a leap of faith. It passes the time and keeps me occupied; it makes me feel alive. By preventing me from reaching this first milestone, I'm being forced to drift--going outside my comfort zone and posting things (like this) that probably seem out of the way. See I don't give up when reaching milestones, and in case you've not already realised, I take this all quite seriously. If that isn't worth gaining substantial support for, I may as well just remove my profile (you just continue to entertain and think about yourselves). But then, as anyone would tell you, to be ignored is just plain rude! Well I'll just let the actual playlist stand for itself now... WOE.

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